Love Clown

You were like a drug

No one knew about us

I fancied myself in love

Never let myself see it wasn’t enough 

I forgot about you

Even though back then 

I thought I was in love with you

Your name is in my everyday

But when I hear it

I don’t see your face 

I wonder if you remember me

I’m sure you thought I was easy 

Nothing about what we did was good

I think I did it because I could

All it was was hook ups

Across the street

In your truck

I’m sure you were using me

As I was an emotional wreck 

And you just up and left each time

Years later I tried to keep in touch

You gave excuses, never replied

I was hopeful, probably too much

I let you let me down

I thought the past could return

I’ve always been a love clown

I’m now forgetting the things

That drew me to you

I really had gone a little mad

Wanting what the rest of the world had

Single and older, I’m writing this

Ignorance is really bliss

I can see manipulation easier now

I wonder why I remember you somehow