Junior year
Fresh from his lies
I was still 16
A girl who lost her starry eyes
You were of age
According to the law
Signed your name on a page
That enlisted you the next fall
As you were getting ready
I was holding too tightly
I sent texting shortcuts to be coy
You said they were annoying
I haven’t used them like that since
It’s been years, over ten
Tonight, I thought about you
I’m still alone in life
I know for you that’s not true
A friend showed me your wife
Funny how you said you were gay
That you couldn’t ever love me
I question myself thinking of that day
Why couldn’t you say it was just me
I’ve been scared of love
Because of him and you
To you I wasn’t enough
So you lied, and he did too
Now it makes me mad
Because to you “gay” was an excuse
To get me to step back
Make me let go of you
I can’t just let the past go
Be okay with that game
If you wanted to be left alone
Why couldn’t you just say?
So hey, Chris, fuck you
Because I deserved the fucking truth
Honestly, I’m actually over it
I’m writing this to break the wall
I can’t remember your last name
But I know it’s now harder to fall
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